There are several costs you’re forced to pay when you treat moral value as optional.

First, it tricks you into commoditizing yourself. Relationships become shallow and transaction-based. Fulfillment disappears. Low-grade tension replaces it.

Next, your mind tricks you into the denial trap. Deep sleep becomes a long-forgotten memory. Your dreams become lighter (if they’re still there at all). And your mind is constantly “on edge,” never able to relax.

Then, the hidden costs start emerging. Low-grade guilt and toxic shame. But it’s not dramatic. It’s a subtle, ongoing strain that suffocates any feelings of deep peace, real rest, and carefree joy.

You might get hits of these feelings, but they never last.

Here’s the good news:

There is a way back, but you won’t like it. Only through cultivating your moral value can you rediscover the feelings of deep peace, real rest, and carefree joy.

It won’t be easy. But the alternative – where you gradually let this low-grade tension overwhelm your nervous system, steal all of your joy, and deprive you of fulfillment – is far worse.

Listen now.

 Show highlights include:


  • The psychological resistance highly intelligent and successful people face when confronted with moral questions (and why you need morality to relax your nervous system) (1:32)
  • How smart, successful, and decent people get lost in their own denial and self-sabotage their life (5:09)
  • The real reason behind why you can’t fall asleep at night, your dreams are lighter, and peace of mind is always out of your grasp (6:41)
  • A strange, yet scientifically verified reason why the smarter you are, the more likely you are to fall into the denial trap. (This also explains why intelligent people join cults.) (8:10)
  • The #1 most common fear of high achievers. (If you’re quick to compare, feel constant pressure, or desire acceptance… you likely have this fear.) (9:30)
  • How success morphs into a shield for your own toxic shame that you’ve buried (9:51)
    What happens subtly and under the surface of your awareness when your mind learns that your market value IS your value (21:43)
  • The society-wide conditioning (first uncovered by a German psychologist in the 20th century) that’s happening to you right now and explains why you lack self-worth (24:16)
  • Are you trading your happiness for busyness and productivity? Most high-achievers make this deal without realizing it… here’s how to void this contract (26:28)

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Let’s start with something that’s easy to observe, especially if you’ve spent a lot of time around successful people. Highly intelligent, highly successful people often avoid moral questions. They tend to wave them away. Moral talk gets labeled as naive or idealistic, or beside the point. It’s treated as a kind of distraction from the real work, real decisions, real impact.

What makes this most interesting is that the same people can be thoughtful or reflective and subtle in almost every other domain of expertise. They think carefully about strategy. They read widely. They reflect on their mistakes. They can talk at length about incentives and systems, and psychology and power, and yet when the conversation turns to moral value, they clamp down. That’s the puzzle. [01:05.0]

These are not dumb people. They’re not foolish people. They’re not uneducated. They’re not lacking in reasoning ability. Many of them sense privately that something in their lives feels unsettled. They feel it late at night or in quiet moments when there’s nothing left to optimize. They just don’t like naming it. This isn’t a failure of intelligence. It isn’t a lack of information, and it isn’t that moral questions are too complex for them to grasp. The resistance comes from somewhere else, somewhere deeper.

The claim I want to make right off the bat as clearly as possible is that this resistance is psychological. It operates below the level of conscious reasoning. It shows up as impatience or dismissal, or boredom, but its source sits deeper than belief or argument. [01:53.0]

Moral questions threaten something these people rely on to feel stable. They threaten the structures that protects self-image, control, in a sense of being above doubt. When those structures in their minds feel at risk, their minds react automatically. They steer their attention away. They reframe the issue. They change the subject.

What’s most important here is that this reaction happens largely outside their awareness. These people don’t wake up and decide to avoid moral reflection. The avoidance happens first, and then the post hoc rationalization for this happens after the fact, and once you see that this stops being about convincing smart people to think better. It becomes about understanding what their minds are protecting and why moral value feels so dangerous to approach for them, even for those who pride themselves on clear thinking. [02:48.8]

So, if the resistance lives below conscious awareness, then the next question matters more than any argument could—what exactly is being resisted? At the base of this sits a simple psychological fact. Human beings evolved a moral instinct. It’s not philosophy. It’s not a theory. It’s closer to an alarm system. It activates before language. It shows up as a bodily sense that an action is wrong, even before rational reasons appear.

Long before anyone learned to argue, they learned to feel when a line had been crossed. I’ve covered this in more detail in other podcast episodes, but I’ll give a shorter summary here. This instinct, this moral instinct, exists for practical reasons. Groups survive only when trust is possible. Trust requires some actions to feel off-limits, like betrayal or cruelty, or exploitation or deception.

These cannot be neutral choices if cooperation or alliances are going to last, so the mind carries an internal signal that fires early before rational calculation can occur, and that moral signal protects alliances. It protects social bonds. It ensures a much better chance of survival if you’ve got it. [04:11.8]

This moral instinct never actually disappears in us. You can consciously act against it. You can consciously override it, just like you could do for any evolved instinct. You can ignore it for a while. You can bury it under intellectualizing, but you cannot delete it. It doesn’t switch off just because you’re successful. It doesn’t fade just because you’re clever. It stays active in the background, whether you want it there or not, and this is where intelligence enters the picture and where the problem actually begins with our highly evolved prefrontal cortexes in the brain.

A smart mind is excellent at explanation. It can build stories quickly. It can justify actions after the fact. It can supply reasons that sound coherent, even noble. The action happens first, and then the explanation follows. That post hoc explanation then convinces the conscious mind that everything is fine. [05:08.8]

Psychologists sometimes describe this as the Rider and the Elephant. I’m borrowing this analogy of the rider and the elephant straight out of Jonathan Haidt who borrowed it from Sigmund Freud. The elephant moves first, and then the rider explains why it did. That intelligence strengthens the rider, but it does nothing to weaken or control the big elephant. This means a highly intelligent person can violate their own moral instinct while staying conscious of themselves as rational and decent.

That feeling of wrongness gets covered over by explanation. The mind learns how to talk its way past the moral alarm system, at least that’s what it feels like on the surface. Underneath, in the unconscious, something else happens. The moral instinct doesn’t disappear just because it’s been explained away. It registers the violation anyway, and the physical body knows it. The nervous system knows it. The signal has fired, even if the mind refuses to listen consciously. [06:07.5]

This creates a problem that’s easy to miss. Once the moral instinct is violated, awareness becomes dangerous. Fully noticing what happened would threaten the self-image that keeps everything stable, so the mind learns to keep certain thoughts out of view. It narrows attention. It redirects focus. It stays busy. This is denial in the psychoanalytic sense. It’s not lying. It’s not pretending consciously. It’s a silent refusal to let certain facts fully register, and it takes work.

Think of a person who committed a serious crime and was never caught. The evidence is gone. No one suspects them. On the surface, life continues, but the act has not vanished. The mind has to guard it. The truth has to stay buried. That vigilance doesn’t just stop. It becomes a background task that never fully relaxes. [07:02.5]

The same structure appears in milder form whenever someone violates their moral sense and keeps going. Something inside must stay hidden, and anything hidden requires guarding. This is why peace of mind becomes so difficult. Real rest requires nothing needing to be managed. Deep sleep requires safety, at least for a smart, aware person, and safety requires that nothing dangerous is waiting to surface. When conscience has been overridden repeatedly, the system never stands down. Part of the mind stays alert and dreams get lighter. The sleep becomes a lot more shallow and rest feels incomplete.

Intelligence intensifies this. A smarter person knows, at some level, what they’re actually avoiding. Even if they never name it, they sense it, and they know they’re in denial. That awareness increases the need for control. It increases the need to stay busy, to distract. It increases the need to justify to yourself and to others who might question you. [08:10.0]

Over time, this shapes your character. Moral questions start to feel irritating. They feel like they’re slowing things down. They feel like they’re threatening explanations that have been working up to this point. They risk reopening doors that took so much effort to seal shut in your mind, so avoidance begins to feel sensible, maybe even necessary.

This is why moral discussion feels dangerous to people who otherwise might prize clarity. It threatens to reawaken an instinct that has been overridden many times already. It threatens to expose the cost of that overriding, and once that cost is fully felt, it cannot be unfelt. Thus, the resistance is not confusion. It’s protection. The mind’s doing what it has learned to do. It’s keeping the system running, and the very intelligence that made success possible has also made this form of denial easier to maintain. [09:09.6]

Okay, so if the moral instinct keeps firing in the background even when it’s ignored, then the next question is why some people feel especially driven to ignore it, and this is where the work of Alfred Adler helps, because he was paying attention to what people protect when they succeed. One of Adler’s core instincts is simple—many high achievers carry a deep fear of being insignificant.

This fear often forms earlier in their lives. It doesn’t come from laziness or weakness. It comes from comparison, pressure, and the sense that love or acceptance had to be earned. Over time, achievement became a way out of that fear. Success becomes proof that you matter. Once that happens, success stops being a simple goal and starts being a shield. It holds shame, toxic shame, at bay. It keeps the old fear of being unworthy quiet. As long as a shield is up and intact, life feels manageable. [10:13.1]

The need to maintain a sense of superiority is the common compensating move to protect against the inferiority of unworthiness. Superiority here does not always look like arrogance. Often it shows up as distance to stay above the fray. You stay decisive. You stay certain, and that stance protects against toxic shame. It prevents you from feeling small. It also creates space between you and others, which feels safer than closeness, when your self-worth feels very fragile.

The problem is that this structure is really sensitive. Being questioned might feel dangerous, even when the question is reasonable or logical, or otherwise just innocent or harmless curiosity, because doubt feels like weakness. Hesitation feels like exposure. So, the mind learns to move quickly to defend. It answers before listening. It explains before understanding. It closes the loop as fast as possible. [11:14.7]

Moral value threatens this arrangement in a very specific way. Moral value implies limits. It suggests that some things are off the table, even if you could get away with them. It suggests that power doesn’t place you above morality or restraint. It suggests that success doesn’t cancel responsibility. For someone relying on superiority to feel safe, this lands as a threat.

Limits imply that you are not above everything. They imply that there are standards that you answer to even when no one else is watching, and that concept punctures the shield. The mind reacts automatically. Moral questions start to feel impractical. They get framed as distractions from action or clean decision-making. They feel like they’re slowing things down. They risk reopening uncertainty, so they end up getting pushed aside, often without even consciously choosing to do so, and what replaces it is certainty. [12:17.2]

Certainty feels strong. It feels clean. It keeps the structure intact. It keeps all of your defensive mechanisms going. Curiosity, by contrast, feels risky. Curiosity opens doors. It invites questions that may not have tidy answers. For someone guarding against shame, that openness feels unsafe, and over time, awareness itself begins to feel like a liability.

Paying attention to moral discomfort would require admitting limits. It would require tolerating uncertainty. It would require stepping down from the protective height that success has built, so awareness gets narrowed and sacrificed. Attention gets directed outward. Decisions seem like they have to stay fast. The system has to keep moving. [13:08.3]

This explains a common pattern among highly successful people. They are sharp, informed, and articulate. They can discuss complex issues with ease. Yet when moral vulnerability appears, their tone changes. Their patience shortens. Their curiosity fades. The conversation ends. This isn’t hypocrisy. It’s defense. The superiority structure is doing its job. It’s keeping the old fear out of reach. It’s protecting against the feeling of insignificance that achievement was meant to solve. The costs, though, show up later.

When certainty replaces curiosity for too long. Learning slows down. Feedback gets filtered. Dissent feels personal. Judgment narrows too much. The world becomes easier to manage, but a lot harder to see clearly, and the deeper cost runs underneath all of that. [14:02.1]

The more the mind relies on superiority to stay safe, the more fragile safety and security ends up becoming, and every challenge then feels larger. Every moral question feels heavier, and every reminder of limits feels intrusive and threatening. This is why moral reflection often feels intolerable to people who appear confident. It threatens the very structure that has allowed them to function so well. IT risks bringing them back into contact with the vulnerability they worked so hard to escape.

Understanding this really matters, because it changes how we read resistance. What looks like dismissal is actually often fear. What looks like certainty is actually often protection, and what looks like strength is sometimes a refusal to risk feeling small again—and until that fear is faced, moral value will keep feeling dangerous and threatening, not because it lacks merit, of course, but because it asks something that the superiority defense was built to avoid. [15:04.0]

So, if Adler’s work helps us see how superiority protects against shame, Karen Horney helps us see something slightly different and just as important. She was interested in the image that people build of who they believe they must be in order to feel worthy or accepted. For many high-achievers, this image forms early on in their lives and then hardens over time. It usually has a few familiar features, like, you must be decisive. You must be impressive. You must stay above hesitation. You must look like someone who knows where they are going. Uncertainty is allowed only in private and, even then, only briefly.

At first, this image feels motivating. It provides direction. It helps a person act in the world. But slowly, almost without noticing, the image becomes a requirement. You don’t just want to be this person. You feel you have to be this person now. Your sense of worth begins to depend on maintaining the picture. That’s when the structure becomes very fragile. [16:07.4]

Moral doubt poses a special problem here. Moral doubt does not arrive politely. It doesn’t present itself as a clean, easy choice between options. The moral doubt that naturally arises from exploring moral questions shows up as discomfort, as hesitation, as a sense that something about a decision doesn’t sit quite right, even when it looks efficient or maybe justified on paper.

For someone invested in the ideal Self, that hesitation is dangerous. Doubt suggests imperfection. Imperfection suggests exposure, and exposure threatens collapse, so the whole thing feels threatening. So, the mind reacts quickly, even before the person is aware of what’s happening. The unconscious response is predictable. The silence gets filled immediately. The explanations arrive really fast, and then the reasons stack up, and the mind talks itself through the moment before the discomfort has had time to settle. [17:08.1]

Questions that don’t have clean answers end up getting avoided, pushed away. Complexity then feels just irritating and a waste of time, and ambiguity starts to feel like failure, and this is how justification becomes a reflex. It’s not a deliberate lie. It’s a protective move. The mind is trying to preserve the image that keeps everything locked down inside.

Over time, this distorts moral reflection. Right and wrong, and good and evil, stop being real categories. They get reframed as outcomes or as efficiency, or as expedience or as just what works or what benefits you the most. The question then shifts from, “Is this right?” to “How do I defend this?” The moral conscience doesn’t disappear. It gets sidelined. [18:02.0]

Its signals are then treated as noise, and the person learns to step over them quickly, and because the ideal Self demands consistency and confidence, slowing down to listen feels risky and threatening. This is why moral ambiguity becomes so hard to tolerate for people who otherwise might handle complexity well at work. Ambiguity threatens their image. It introduces pauses. It raises the possibility that certainty might be premature.

For someone whose identity depends on appearing resolved, that pause feels like standing on thin ice, so the mind clamps down and the gray areas get flattened out or ignored. Moral language starts to sound sentimental or vague. Practical language takes over completely. Everything gets translated into performance terms. [18:56.8]

What’s lost in this process isn’t intelligence. It’s actually contact—contact with the part of the mind that registers moral reality before it’s turned into an argument or more rationalizing, contact with the part that knows that some actions cost something internally, even if they succeed externally. The deeper cost shows up later.

When the ideal Self runs a system, life becomes a performance that cannot rest. Every decision has to confirm the image. Every doubt has to be suppressed. Every hesitation has to be explained away. This creates a strange tension. On the surface, things might look confident, but underneath, the mind works overtime to maintain the story, the coherence. Moral questions feel exhausting, because they threaten to unravel the story, so they’re kept at a distance. [19:51.5]

Horney’s point was not that people become immoral on purpose. It’s that they become unable to tolerate the inner experience that moral reasoning requires. Moral reflection demands the capacity to sit with doubt without rushing to resolve it. It demands the ability to admit limits without collapsing.

When the ideal Self is too rigid, that capacity disappears. Conscience is no longer welcomed as guidance, and it gets felt as an interruption, and once that happens, moral value stops feeling like a source of orientation and starts feeling like an obstacle that you have to get around or manage. At that point, avoidance feels sensible, even necessary, and the more successful the person becomes, the harder it feels to loosen up or let go of the rigid image that their idea of success seems to require from them. [20:44.5]

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So, if the ideal self makes doubt feel dangerous, Erich Fromm helps explain why moral value starts to feel irrelevant, not even wrong, not false per se, just beside the point. One of the great pioneers of psychology, along with Adler and Horney, Erich Fromm, was watching a cultural change that now feels commonplace to us. Worth becomes tied to output, what you produce, what you influence, what you can move or scale, or monetize. Over time, this stops being a strategy and becomes an ossified identity—you are what you deliver. You matter because of what you can do. [22:10.3]

At first, this feels empowering. Results are visible. The metrics are clear. Progress can be tracked visibly. You can point to evidence that you’re useful, effective and needed, and in a competitive world, that kind of clarity feels reassuring. Something subtle but important happens underneath the surface.

Value starts to mean market value, and once that happens, other kinds of value begin to fade from view. Moral value doesn’t disappear, but it loses priority a lot. Truth matters only if it helps the outcome. Integrity matters only if it doesn’t interfere with the performance momentum. If a principle slows things down, complicates a deal or threatens a win, starts to look optional. [22:56.7]

This doesn’t feel like corruption from the inside. It feels practical, and the language shifts subtly and silently. People stop asking whether something is right and they instead shift to asking whether it works. Success becomes the main scoreboard. Anything that doesn’t register there starts to feel useless. Moral thinking becomes threatening in this environment for a simple reason. It asks questions with no immediate payoff. It asks you to stop and pause. It asks you to consider costs that don’t show up on a balance sheet. It asks you to answer to standards that can’t be optimized.

For someone whose sense of worth is tied so closely to performance, this is threatening, feels destabilizing. If success is the measure, then moral questions look like distractions. They don’t move the needle. They don’t scale. They don’t offer a clear return. So, moral reasoning and moral language starts to sound soft, vague, idealistic, even indulgent, and this reaction often surprises people who have it because many of them actually privately crave meaning. [24:05.6]

They read books about purpose. They talk about values in quieter moments, but when it comes time to act or perform, their market logic takes over. Fromm’s insight was that this is not a personal failure. It’s a form of society-wide conditioning. When a culture treats people as commodities, people learn to treat themselves that way. They learn to evaluate their worth by demand, because actually thinking in the way that culture thinks about you helps you to optimize for it, and once that happens, moral value starts to feel like a luxury item, optional.

There’s another cost that runs even deeper. When you measure yourself by output, start to measure others in the same way, so relationships become transactional, even when no one says so out loud. Alliances form around usefulness. Loyalty lasts only as long as performance does, and of course, to anyone who is smart, this erodes trust, because if worth is conditional, then care is conditional. [25:09.8]

If people matter because of what they provide, then they can be replaced when they stop providing. Even close relationships begin to carry an unspoken question—“What happens when I’m no longer useful to you?” The question is rarely asked directly or openly, but, of course, it shapes behavior. It makes smart people cautious. It keeps emotional distance intact. It prevents the kind of openness that real connection, friendship, relationships require.

Moral value threatens this arrangement because it insists that some things matter regardless of outcome. It insists that people are not interchangeable. It insists that certain lines shouldn’t be crossed, even if crossing them would be efficient. For someone living inside market logic, though, this sounds like a huge step backward. It feels naive. It feels out of touch with how the world really works, and yet, the craving for meaning doesn’t go away. It just gets buried under more performance activity. [26:13.1]

This is why moral language can sound hollow to people who secretly want it to be true. They’re not rejecting morality itself. They’re rejecting a threat to the system that gives their life coherence. Fromm’s point was that when market value replaces moral value, people don’t become happier. They become busier. They become more productive. They become harder to satisfy, and they make it harder for themselves to be happy.

They slowly lose contact with the core in them that knows life is more than just output, and at that point, moral reflection stops feeling like guidance and starts feeling like interference. That’s when avoidance becomes the default, even for people who sense that something essential is being lost or left behind. [27:03.5]

So, if market value pushes moral value to the margins, the next effect isn’t philosophical. It’s psychological, and it shows up in a way that most people never connect back to moral conscience. When someone violates their moral sense, the mind has to deal with that fact. If the person were to fully register it, the self-image that holds everything together would be threatened, so the mind takes a different route. It hides the fact from itself.

This is what denial actually is. It’s not lying in the ordinary sense. It’s not telling a false story on purpose. It’s keeping certain truths out of awareness because letting them in would be too destabilizing. The mind narrows what it allows itself to notice. An analogy might help here, even though it might be uncomfortable. [27:50.0]

Imagine someone who commits a murder and is never caught. There’s no trial, no punishment, no exposure, and on the surface, life continues, but the act hasn’t vanished. The person knows what happened, even if they never say it out loud. From that moment on, the mind has a permanent job—the truth must stay buried. The story must remain intact. Certain thoughts cannot be followed too far. Certain questions must not be asked. This doesn’t require conscious effort every minute, but it’s always running in the background. It never fully stops.

Now, translate this inward and make it less dramatic. Most moral violations are actually not crimes. They’re choices that crossed a line the person knew was there, like maybe exploiting someone or betraying trust, or sacrificing honesty to gain an advantage. Each time this happens and is explained away, the same structure forms. It hardens. It ossifies. The nervous system stays slightly alert. It never fully relaxes, so sleep becomes a lot lighter. Rest feels incomplete and not refreshing. Peace arrives in short bursts and then leaves quickly. There’s always something the mind doesn’t want to examine too closely. This is not punishment from an external source. It’s the cost of maintaining denial. [29:11.0]

Intelligence actually makes this worse. A smart person understands what they’re hiding, even while they’re pretending not to themselves and to others. They sense where the edges are. They know which topics make them uncomfortable. They learn to stay productive, busy and engaged so that the edges aren’t ever approached, and over time, this shapes the inner climate of a life, so calm—real calm—becomes rare. Stillness feels uneasy. Silence invites thoughts that you’re trying to avoid, so noise fills the space. Work expands. Distractions multiply. Doom scrolling happens.

This is why success never brings the peace that people expect. The problem isn’t that achievement fails to deliver pleasure. It often does, the pleasure. The problem is that pleasure can’t settle when part of the mind is always on watch. Real peace requires that nothing is being hidden. It requires that the mind can stand down. That requires a clear conscience. [30:14.2]

I started this podcast episode with explaining why we evolved a moral conscience in the first place, a moral sense, a moral instinct, so that we could more naturally and easily tell who we could trust, who we could trust to form alliances with. That same evolved moral sense in us is also judging ourselves, and if we don’t have a clear moral conscience, even safety feels fragile to us. Even comfort feels temporary.

You might think you look relaxed on the outside, but internally, you are managing something. The cost is not always obvious, but it will accumulate, and over the years, it shows up as chronic exhaustion, as irritability, as a sense that rest never quite works. [31:02.4]

This is also why moral conversations feel so threatening. They risk loosening this denial. They invite attention back to the areas that you’ve sealed off. Even gentle questions can feel invasive, not because they’re aggressive per se, but because they end up pointing your mind in the wrong direction, a direction you’ve been trying to deny.

For a smart person, this is especially uncomfortable. Intelligence keeps the system running smoothly. It supplies rationalizations. It keeps explanations feeling coherent, but it also means the person cannot fully forget what they are actually avoiding, and that awareness sits in the background, like a low-level hum that never goes away.

This is the hidden cost of treating moral value as optional. It’s not guilt in the dramatic sense. It’s more like a subtle, ongoing strain, a life lived with parts of the mind always guarding at the door. This isn’t a state in which deep peace or real rest or care-free joy can ever last. [32:06.2]

So, when part of the mind is always guarding the door, that strain doesn’t just stay private to you. It spills into your relationships, and this is where the damage becomes a lot more obvious. When values are treated as tools, people start to look like tools as well, not consciously, of course, but most of the time anyway.

No one wakes up thinking, Today, I will instrumentalize my friends, but the logic spreads. If honesty matters because it’s useful, then people matter because they’re useful. If integrity is optional when it gets in the way, then so is loyalty. The unconscious draws a simple and obvious logical conclusion. “If I’m using others to get what I want, then others are using me in the same way.” Even kindness becomes suspect. Even praise feels provisional. [32:57.7]

There’s always a question floating in the background: “What happens when I stop being useful?” The question poisons trust. You can still have alliances. You can still have partnerships. They’re just conditional. You can even have warmth and laughter, but something essential is missing. There is no unconditional ground. Every relationship carries an invisible calculation. “How long will this last? What is being exchanged here?”

This is why relationships start to feel really thin, even when you might have a lot of them. You may be surrounded by capable people. You may have influence and access and the networks, and yet you are alone in a very specific way that there is no one with whom you can fully drop the performance. Full trust requires the belief that you matter, even when you fail, even when you are inconvenient, even when you cannot deliver, and that belief cannot survive in a world where value is always conditional. [33:57.0]

If you treat values instrumentally, you teach yourself that everything is conditional. Joy often suffers first. Joy isn’t pleasure. Pleasure can happen under pressure. Pleasure can be scheduled. Joy is different. Joy is carefree in the best sense. It assumes trust and safety. It assumes that nothing bad is about to happen. It assumes that you can relax without consequences.

That assumption becomes irrational when denial is running the system. If part of you knows that relationships are contingent, conditional, transactional, then letting go is dangerous. If part of you knows that you are valued for your performance, then resting feels risky. You might fall behind. You might lose standing. You might become replaceable. Even good moments carry tension. Even success feels brittle. You enjoy it, but only briefly. Something will always pull you back into vigilance. There’s always another move to make, another outcome to secure. [35:01.8]

This is why carefree joy becomes impossible in a life organized around instrumental values. Carefree joy requires true trust. Trust requires safety, and safety requires a belief that you’re not being assessed at every moment. When values are reduced to means, that belief actually can never take root, because the mind is always having to stay on guard, and the heart then has to stay cautious, and even if joy were to arrive, it will never stay.

Here’s a tragic irony—many people pursue success precisely because they want freedom, ease and enjoyment. They want to relax into life. They want to feel at home in their own skin. But by treating values as tools along the way, they build a world where that relaxation can never happen, because it makes no sense. In such a world, joy looks irresponsible. Trust looks naive, and letting go feels like a mistake. [36:01.4]

That’s not because joy is inherently fragile. It’s because the foundations beneath it have been undermined, and until those foundations are restored, even the best circumstances will feel like they’re missing something essential.

Up to this point, most of what I’ve been saying has stayed in the language of psychology. Defense, denial, protection, those explanations, of course, they matter, but they are not the final word. There’s a line that has to be drawn here, and this is where moral philosophy enters the conversation. Virtue matters intrinsically. It matters in itself. It’s not merely a way to improve performance or sharpen judgment. It matters because it makes a human life livable from the inside.

A life can be efficient, admired, successful, wealthy, and still feel inhospitable to the person living it. Virtue addresses that problem at the root, and here’s the hard truth—without a clear conscience, a smart person cannot fully enjoy life. [37:04.6]

Intelligence makes this more acute, not less. A reflective mind cannot fully forget what it knows. You can distract yourself. You can try to explain it away, rationalize it, justify it, but it cannot erase the awareness. When conscience is violated repeatedly, repression becomes a daily ongoing task. Something has to stay out of sight, and that effort never rests. Even during moments of pleasure, part of the mind stays on duty. It monitors. It guards. It keeps certain thoughts from coming too close, and that vigilance blocks peace.

This is why moral goodness is not an optional refinement added in after success. It’s the condition that allows success to be enjoyed. A clear conscience doesn’t guarantee happiness, but without it, happiness will always be fleeting, always unstable. It flickers and fades. [38:03.0]

The rewards of virtue are often misunderstood because they’re not flashy. They’re not trophies. They’re quiet, not dramatic, like deep, restorative sleep, the kind where the body truly can let go. Relationships that are not contingent on usefulness. True intimacy, true love, real unconditional love, which is really the only kind of love, friendships, where nothing has to be proven, where failure doesn’t threaten belonging.

Then there’s joy, not just excitement, not just pleasure, purchased or scheduled, joy that arises when the vigilance drops, joy that appears when there is no need to manage impressions or calculate outcomes—and that joy requires safety. Safety requires trust. Trust requires integrity. [38:52.3]

A life ordered by virtue doesn’t need constant explaining away or rationalization. It does not require rehearsal. It doesn’t require hiding parts of yourself. Valuing virtue intrinsically frees up attention. It frees up energy. It allows the person to fully inhabit and thrive in their lives rather than always having to manage their life. 

Moral reasoning, at its best, doesn’t scold. Instead, it names reality. It says that certain ways of living harmonize with the structure of the human mind, and other ways create unnecessary strain. This is not mere sentiment. It’s actually just observation repeated across centuries and millennia by people who paid close attention.

A clear conscience isn’t a bonus prize for good behavior. It’s the ground on which peace stands, and from that ground can come rest trust and joy, and without it, even the most impressive life remains internally unsettled, always working, always compensating, always on the treadmill of performance, never ever fully at ease. This is why virtue isn’t merely useful. It’s necessary for a life that can finally rest and feel fulfilling. [40:12.7]

Okay, so here’s the arc that we’ve been tracing. Intelligence makes moral avoidance possible. A sharp mind can explain away almost anything. It can justify decisions after the fact. It can stay busy, productive and convincing. That ability helps people succeed. It helps them step around conscience without having to stop, and for a while, that will work. Achievement can distract. It can fill up your calendar. It can fill the room with noise and motion. It gives your mind something to point at when the discomfort appears. “Look at the results. Look at the progress. Look at the impact.”

For a time that distraction might feel like relief, but true intelligence carries a second effect. It keeps score. A reflective mind notices patterns. It notices unnecessary strain and pain and suffering. It notices that rest doesn’t restore the way it used to. It notices that trust feels really thin. It notices that joy arrives briefly, if it ever does, and always leaves early. [41:12.2]

Over time, the cost of that denial becomes harder and harder to ignore. This is why so many smart people circle back to moral questions later in life. Not because they suddenly become sentimental, not because they’ve lost their edge, they return because the alternatives have stopped working.

Achievement can only carry you so far. It can buy comfort, access influence. It cannot repair the inner strain created by living against what you actually know. It cannot give rest to a mind that’s always managing itself. It can’t rebuild trust where everything feels conditional and is conditional. Eventually, intelligence turns on the system that it helped to construct. It starts asking harder questions. “Why does this feel so fragile? Why does success feel so heavy? Why does nothing ever seem to land?” [42:00.6]

At that point, moral truth stops sounding abstract and it starts sounding practical in the deepest sense. It describes how human beings actually function. It names the conditions under which a mind can relax and relationships can deepen, and joy can stay. This is where moral goodness belongs, not as some tactic or a branding choice, but as harmony with reality.

Reality has a structure. Human psychology has limits. Conscience is part of that structure, and ignoring that reality creates friction and suffering. In the end, this isn’t just about being good for the sake of appearances. It’s about living in a way that doesn’t require constant defense. It’s about choosing a life that can thrive, rather than one that has to keep you running. Reality is the only place a human mind can finally rest. Moral goodness is how you live there without tearing yourself in two. [42:58.8]Thank you so much for listening. This is the first audio-only podcast since we switched back from the video format on YouTube. Let me know how you liked it. Please send any feedback you’ve got. Leave a comment. Send me an email. I’d love to get your feedback. Thank you again so much for listening. I look forward to welcoming you to the next episode. Until then, David Tian, signing out. [43:17.0]